Today is a sad day for us...our little girl was admitted to the hospital this morning. They think she has some fluid in her lungs and might have pneumonia. We are praying that she will get better soon but we might be without a visit for another ten days. Obviously this means our trip to Almaty has been postponed for the time being. Our coordinator is going to Almaty tomorrow to try and convince the doctor to come to Kyzylorda to do the medical for immigration. Andrew and I are trying not to be too worried about the hospital stay but are losing at this. I am extremely terrified as I have had heard of children not surviving this. I also have experience with children I care about passing away. It seems I have found my faith again and I have been praying to any God that will hear me to keep an eye on our little girl. Andrew is sad and has been cuddling one of the toys we have brought...I put the hat that Sharon bought for her in Saskatoon on it...and looking at pictures we have taken. We put the hat from Nana on our girl's head the first day we met her...it kind of smells like her. I'm sorry that todays log isn't as up beat as the previous but you guys wanted honesty so here it is.
We tried to distract ourselves today...we went to the bazaar in the morning (we didn't hear about our girl until early afternoon). I found two pairs of jeans that seem to have been made for me...the fit like a glove. Andrew likes the fact that they are stretch and a little form fitting. We were told the news while shopping today and it really made me sad (and not up for more shopping). I did try to distract myself with more shopping but all I really wanted to do was go back to the hotel and cry. I knew we would have hoops to jump through while here but when is it going to stop? We are nice people and do nice things and seem to have some interesting karma right now. Any thoughts and prayers would be really appreciated right now.
Normally I wouldn't say I am an overly religious person but I think having children makes a person believe in a higher power. A few days ago we went into a Russian Orthodox Church and it was amazing. This church was built in 1878 and had a presence about it. There were idols on all the walls and they even have a picture of the Holy Mother that has bled. Again I don't normally say things like this but it was like I could feel God's (or whatever you want to call it...fate, buddah, karma) presence there. It was a really nice feeling. The priest (if this is what the term is) was very nice and welcomed us in. He also invited us to witness a baptism and we stayed. Even though I couldn't understand what he was saying on some level I did. I don't know how to put it...it was like something he was saying was familiar. Now you don't all have to go and worry that I have fallen off the deep end or that a fish without the word Darwin is going to appear on my vehicle. I am just sharing the experience.
I hope I haven't scared to many of you. I needed to talk and I guess you all get to be my audience. Andrew says it is cathartic (spelling?). Well we are going to go back to watching DVDs now. Today we watched Criminal Minds (boy is it good) and now I think something light and cartoony is on the menu. Lots of love to you all...keep the good thought for our girl coming. Paka Paka (Bye Bye).
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Oh honey! *hugs* If I could reach through the internet and make your pain and worry go away, I would do it in an instant and 1,000 times over. Stay hopeful, keep praying. I have to believe that God is weird like that -- He sucks sometimes, but He's there. And if it's not Him, it's something as equally powerful.
I will request that little Princess Pearson be held in prayer at my friend's home-group tonight.
Meanwhile, the two of you stay strong and remember the wonderful things you love about each other and how you've grown together and built a wonderful partnership and union. *hugs* and *pixie dust* - bridget
hi my babies. i tried to call. i really did. apparently the phone thing no worky really good.....
i wish i could just be there. you know you are in all our hearts and prayers here. my mom too.
snuggle up toghether, hold on thight and you will be be all good in no time. keep positive. heather and i have plans for the wee one, so you know it will all turn out great. that is my theory.
love you
We are so sorry to hear about the new worries you have to go through. There is nothing wrong in believing in God. It is just the "ground crew" that I have problems with. Our prayers are with you and the little one. We will try to call this evening (your a.m.). Our love to all three of you. Nana and Opa.
In my own quiet and elegant way, I say CRAP! You are obviously being tested to the hilt at the moment. The positive thing here is that they did admit wee one to the hospital where she can be treated much more efficiently. This is a good thing. Hold on to each other, and believe that this too shall pass. Stay strong for each other and your little one. Are you not allowed to go visit her in the hospital once she is feeling better? That is tough. Gord and I are thinking of you and know that this will work out for the best. Welcome to parenthood - it is a rare mixture of joy and worry.
Love to all
i have a theory she is just breaking you in, so when she is older and does stuff she can get away with more. ;)
Hi ...sorry to hear the nes but glad to see she is getting care ...nothing worse than having a sick child that YOU CAN"T MAKE BETTER. Welcome to a new degree of helplessness but know the rewards are ten times more special than you could ever expect. we all go through the first worries, the first illness, the first this or that and it is what makes us better equiped to deal with what is ahead. Yep - you have lots of obstacles - just make sure you take a lesson from each one ....take care and best to all three of you ....Jenn
I'm sorry to hear that the wee one is not feeling so good. Keep the faith, Karma has a way of changing at the wink of an eye. I'm sure everything will work out fine and when she turns 18 you and Andrew will sit back and laugh at all the challenges you had to face when your "princess" joined your family. Keep strong and the boys and I will think happy thoughts for you and your family.
Hang in there, Nadine and Andrew. Our thoughts and prayers are with you and the little one.
Andrew and Nadine - After just reading the whole blog here I am now up to speed with your trip so far and what has been going on! (Sorry it has taken so long, I have been having some technical difficulties). First, congratulations on your new little girl! I am so happy for you all - happy for you to have found your baby girl and happy for her that she has found you! I was smiling ear to ear reading about all your cuddle time, and imagining you both as parents! There is nothing better than having a little one snuggled in close. I am terribly sorry and sad to read that she has become ill. It is very good that she is getting the medical care she requires. I know you both must be terribly worried and concerned at this point. Try to stay positive, she is getting the care she needs to get better. Our love, thoughts & prayers are with you all. I'll check in again soon. Take care.
xoxox
Morning Mommy & Daddy, welcome to parenthood, not all fun things ah? You know if we could be there with you it would only take a flash, a blink of the eye. But since that is not possible. Shut your eyes, take a deep breath, imagine us there holding you both as tight as we can, sharing this challange/hurdle along side of you. Trust in your Faith my kids, visit the Church again, gather the good feeling you felt there. Then do what all of us are doing, waiting for Good News! Love yas, Mom & Dad
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